CHAPTER THIRTEEN - A Cocktail of Double Life
We Come from different worlds, different starts
But when you are lying here, in my arms
All I wanna do, is love the way you do
Kenny Rogers
No meeting, or
cheque to be collected, or a court appearance, was going to make Jamba go to
work. To block any temptations, he switched off his phone as soon as he woke up
after sending a message to his Personal Assistant that he would be unavailable.
His plan was clear; drop the children to school while wearing slacks, a
tee-shirt and sandals, return home and spend the whole day holed in the bedroom
with Kamaria, talking, and possibly other things. Preferably other things.
They had spent the night in
different bedrooms because Jamba wanted to have what he called the talk with
the children to prepare them for the eventuality. “Promise she will be here when
we come back from school…” Christine had begged her father earlier when they
opened Kamaria’s bedroom door and found her deep asleep.
“Christine, Kamaria is not going
anywhere anymore…”
“Why are you calling her
Kamaria, anyway?” Christian had asked in confusion.
“It is also her name. All her
friends call her Kamaria and since we are now friends, Kamaria it is…”
“So you are going to marry her?”
Christian was relentless in his questions as he sat at the back seat with
Christine.
“Would you like that?” He asked,
looking at them through the rear view mirror.
“Yes…” It was a two children
chorus answer. “Then we will not have to call her Kamaria or Serah. We can call
her mom…”
Jamba’s smiled, but his smile
matched his heart with heaviness. For a moment, he found himself angry at his
dead wife for denying his children a chance to call someone mother. He found
himself angry at himself for thinking they were alright without a mother, that
he was enough for them. He was angry at God because nothing happened without
His approval and although his father liked to remind him there is always a
reason, he was still trying to work out what was the reason for the too early
death of his wife.
Then he thought of Kamaria and
smiled. She was, in his opinion, worth waiting for. Thinking about her made him
almost forgive God.
Half an hour later, he was back
in the house. He found Kamaria and Mariam in the kitchen having breakfast and
laughing so loudly, they did not hear him open the kitchen door.
“Oh, hi…” Kamaria called as she
chewed on a sausage. “We did not hear you come in.”
“Clearly not. What are you two
so happy about?” He kissed Kamaria on the lips. He was sure he heard Mariam
giggle.
“Oh, this and that…” She winked at him. He shrugged.
“Did you sleep well?”
“Like a log. I almost had a
heart attack when I opened my eyes to morning light. How are the kids?”
“Not happy with me because I did
not let them wake you up to say goodbye…”
“You should have let them. It’s
what we do…”
He put up his hands in
surrender, taking a seat opposite her and picking one of her sausages. “Now I
know.”
“Breakfast, sir?” Mariam offered.
Jamba nodded. “Absolutely. I am famished.” Then he leaned to Kamaria and
whispered, “Breakfast in bed?” Kamaria blushed and nodded enthusiastically.
“Mariam, please put my breakfast in a tray, I will have it in the bedroom.”
As Jamba exited the kitchen, Mariam and Kamaria exchanged a knowing
look. They had discussed many things that morning, but both had steered from
Jamba. Until now.
“He is a good man…” Mariam said as she beat eggs in a bowl. “I can see
the doubt and the fear in your eyes though. What are you scared about?”
Kamaria studied her housekeeper for a few seconds, deep in thought. “I
am not really sure, but I guess I am scared of how perfect this feels. Look at
us, already behaving like an experienced family.”
Mariam turned on the cooker and placed a pan on it. “What is wrong with
that?”
Kamaria shrugged. “Nothing really, but what if it does not last…what if
we wake up tomorrow and things are different?”
Mariam cleared her throat and spoke over sizzling oil on the pan.
“Nobody in this world is sure of anything. Be happy today and hope tomorrow you
will be happy too but if you are not, then you can say you were once happy…”
Kamaria sighed. Why was it all so complicated? Why did love not come
with a sort of guarantee? But deep down, she agreed with her housekeeper. Jamba
was good, for now, and hopefully for all her tomorrows. He was giving her
something she had craved for as long as she could remember.
“Mzee’s breakfast is ready.” Mariam said, and Kamaria burst into
prolonged laughter that left Mariam staring in confusion. “What?”
“Mariam…” Kamaria said, in between laughter. “Jamba does not qualify to
be called mzee. He is only thirty six…”
“Oh, that? But on my side of life, the male boss is always mzee…”
Kamaria took the tray and walked out, still laughing and muttering to
herself. “Mzee indeed. Next she will be calling me mama. I feel so old, gosh…”
***
As Jamba had his breakfast,
Kamaria went to her bedroom and for a shower, changing into comfortable slacks.
She found him clearing his last sip of coffee. “There you are.” He said, wiping
his mouth with a serviette, eyes on her. “Two things wrong with you...”
“Huh?”
“One, you are dressed. Two, you need to bring all your clothes to this
room…” He said as he stood up. She giggled shyly. “I can help you with the
first one though…” When he hugged her with tenderness that got her feel like
nothing could hurt her in this world, she felt marinated and ready for
anything. As gently, he eased her out of her top and she lifted her hands in
compliance. “Good…” he whispered as he kissed her nakedness. “You are not
wearing a bra…” She moaned softly as his warm mouth made contact with her skin.
Next on his list was the slacks. Slowly, he pulled them down, squatting as he
did so. She did not see his smile when he did not see any underwear. “Lovely…”
Naked, Kamaria felt vulnerable in front of a fully dressed Jamba, but
she could not remember ever feeling so liberated. She closed her eyes and
sighed in contentment, only wanting to hear the praises he was whispering to
her body. He was circling her, she could tell that. She felt like an item on
sale, but she smiled at his appreciation. Once in a while he touched her, only
feather light touches. Each touch felt like an electric shock. And she loved
it.
“I cannot get enough of watching this body…” He continued whispering,
this time round he hugged her from behind. “But there are other urgent matters
for now…can you feel them?” She could. She giggled and nodded. “Remember my
promise of kissing you everywhere?” And he led her to the bed.
***
It was hours before either
Kamaria or Jamba could summon energy to get out of bed. Only Kamaria’s rumbling
stomach gave Jamba the energy to move.
“Oy, you weakling…” He accused
her and sealed it with a kiss on the forehead. “A little activity and you need
to replenish your energy…”
She gasped in mock horror. “Is
that what you call a little activity? So what is a lot of activity like? What
did I just get myself into?”
“You will soon know, young
lady…now, sit tight, I am going to get you some food but only for selfish
reasons. I am not done with you yet…”
With a constant smile, she
watched him slip into his slacks and tee-shirt. When he closed the door behind
her, she sighed and sunk under the duvet, wanting to scream her happiness but
instead giggling.
***
On the mat in the bedroom, wearing nothing but nightgowns, they sat and
hungrily ate chicken pilau that Mariam had prepared. “See why it is so hard for
me to keep the weight down? Mariam has always been on a mission to fatten me…”
Kamaria was licking her fingers.
“I can see me actually earning the term mzee because if I feed like this
every day, my tummy will put me to quick shame…but I have an idea; if we have
sex everyday for two hours, it should be enough to burn all calories we
consume.”
“You are greedy in more ways than one…”
“Think about it though. It is a win-win. We eat what we want and burn it
the pleasurable way…”
Kamaria sighed, fighting the same fear of tomorrow that kept sneaking in
just when life appeared to be perfect. Would he still want her this much years,
or months, later?
Too full to be bothered with taking the plates to the kitchen, they lay
on the bed, side by side, facing the ceiling.
“So, what do you have to say about yourself, young lady…” His statement
was so sudden, so out of what they had been up to all day, for a moment she did
not understand what he was talking about. She looked at him, the look on his
face more telling than his words.
She looked back to the ceiling
and sighed. “This is it, right? I am the accused?”
“Oh yeah. And I will only make a
decision of being your lawyer or not, after I hear your story…”
She giggled, appreciating his
effort to make the discussion light.
“I am the judge too…”
“That’s greedy.”
“I know. Come on, what was all that about? Start
from the beginning, please…”
And she did. Mostly with her
eyes shut, she spoke until her mouth went dry. She laughed, she cried, she
choked with tears. But she told all. Jamba listened, wanting to emulate her
laugh, her cry, everything. But he refrained. He was fascinated, and awed. When
she was done, all he wanted was to shout “You love me?” But instead he pulled
her to him and hugged her.
“I don’t know what to think, or
say. But I am so glad you are not a prostitute, not a cop, or something
similarly sinister…”
She pushed him away. “What do
you mean?”
He laughed. “That is what your
former guards think. They knew there was something sinister about you, but they
didn’t know what.”
They both laughed. “You had me
followed, didn’t you? That is how you found out so much.”
“How else would I have found
you?” He answered unapologetically.
And he told his side of the
story. Unlike when she narrated hers, she laughed almost throughout.
“You poor guy. Haven’t you
suffered for love. I love you so much…” she finally said.
And he grinned, finally
understanding the phrase ‘the cat that got the cream.”
Except for that one day she had
to collect clothes from Kileleshwa and decided to spend the night, Kamaria
stayed in Jamba’s house and slept in his room. When Christine and Christian had
first found her in their father’s bed, she realized she was the only one
feeling awkward. They had been so comfortable getting in bed to join her, she
had felt like it was the most natural thing in the world. When they both hugged
her from each side, she had fought tears.
The solitude she had been afraid
of missing by moving in with Jamba had been neutralized by how happy she was.
Even for that one night she had been away, she had almost driven back in the
middle of the night.
The children were more relaxed,
no longer afraid she would disappear. Christine was more attached than
Christian. Jamba seemed to take longer than the children to believe she was not
going anywhere and insisted on driving her to work and from work.
“There is no point of using two
cars when our offices are only two kilometers apart.” He had argued
unconvincingly when Kamaria had challenged.
“Are you sure you are not trying
to keep an eye on me?” Kamaria had asked with a cocky smile.
“Well, that too. But I like our
morning chats. I can’t get enough of you, you know…”
“Man, you better keep this up
until we are old and toothless. You cannot spoil me like this then take it
away…” She had said it as a joke, but it was a genuine concern. Jamba was
showering her with so much love, it scared her.
“Come here.” It was early
morning. They were both getting ready to go to work. He was sitting on the bed,
wearing his socks. He patted the bed to show her where to sit. “Listen, and
listen carefully. I have no intention of ever loving you less, but at the same
time, losing my wife taught me that you need to enjoy now. You cannot stifle
today’s happiness because you are afraid of the sadness that may or may not
come tomorrow.” She remembered Mariam telling her the same thing. She felt like
the clueless alien.
She nodded. She certainly knew
where he was coming from.
“So, if you love me, you better
love me very much. If you don’t love me tomorrow, at least I can reminisce and
say you once loved me in totality.”
She kissed him. “I have no
intention of not loving you.”
“Good. Now, get dressed before a
couple of things happen…” She was still in her underwear and bra. He had
interrupted her full body oiling routine.
“What couple of things?”
“One, that I will get you back
to bed and pick up from where we stopped earlier…” She giggled. “Two, we will
be late for work.”
“And three, the kids might walk
in on us.”
“That too. But I gave them the
talk.”
“What talk?”
“That now that you are sleeping
in my bed, they must always knock before entering, and they must not enter
unless they are allowed to.”
Kamaria giggled again. “Do you
know Christian wanted to know if the two of us are having sex? How does he know
about sex?” Kamaria had been mortified and glad Christine had been out of
sight.
Jamba laughed. Christian had
asked him the same thing. “They hear things in school. I doubt he knows what
sex involves. What did you tell him?
“I sent him to you. Told him
those were boys questions.”
“Coward. But it just makes you
realise how important it is to talk to them candidly about sex. That young man
needs a man to man talk.”
“What about Christine?”
“Woman, that is where you come
in. You are the girl…”
Kamaria gasped in genuine shock.
How does one talk to a nine year old girl about sex? For the first time, she
felt fear of being inadequate to assume the role of a mother. She wondered if
there were classes. She did not know anyone with little girls – would she have
to join clubs for mothers with young children?
“Come on, dress up. Stop day
dreaming…” Jamba snapped playfully, unaware of what the innocent conversation
they just had, had done to her confidence.
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Kamaria, although aware that she
was rusty in matters belonging to a family unit, was mildly surprised to
realise she was walking on eggshells. Afraid of making mistakes. Afraid of
triggering something negative. Afraid of getting it wrong with the children,
children who were overwhelming her with love, trust and dependence.
So she called Shani in near
panic.
“You are not their mother. Stop
trying to be their mother.” Shani, with an uncompromising matter of fact tone,
told her.
“That sounds so cold…” Even
after nearly two decades of friendship, Shani still managed to shock Kamaria
with her shots from both hips.
“No, it is not cold. What you
are doing is setting yourself up. What will definitely happen as a result is
you will disappoint them, you will disappoint yourself, then you will become
resentful and make everyone miserable…”
“But what do I do? The other day
Christian called me mom. That freaked me out…” It had, and Kamaria had
pretended not to have heard him.
“Do you want them to call you
mom?”
Kamaria shook her head on the
phone. “I don’t know. It’s not even about the name; it’s the pressure that
comes with being called mom. Moms are superhuman type of human. I am anything
but…”
“Then you need to talk to Jamba
and tell him your fears. You need to tell him to help you step at a time. The
children definitely need a mother, but you are not that, for now. Be their
friend, establish a proper foundation then see where it goes from there…”
Kamaria sighed. At that point
and time, she wished she had Shani’s character of saying exactly what was in
her mind without any effort to sanitize it. Shani’s character was what she
needed to borrow because she was aware if she did not sort the issue, it would
get out of hand. She had come too far to watch it slip through her fingers just
because she was afraid of upsetting the perfect kind of balance.
Their drive home that evening
was quiet. Jamba had sensed the mood immediately he had spotted her walking
towards the car. She looked tired. Her shoulders were slightly stooped. She was
looking down. Even her usually confident gait had been replaced by a slow
dragging of her feet. It was noisy outside, but he could almost swear he could
hear her feet drag.
When she neared the car, he
reached across and opened her side of the car. She gave him a sad smile. “Hey…”
“Hello sweetheart. Are you
okay?” She offered her cheek for a kiss.
“I am fine. Just a little
tired.”
He did not believe her. He did
not press her either. He drove towards Kilimani. She only noticed they had
taken the route when they near the police station. She looked at him with a
start.
“Where are we going?”
“Well, you look like you want to
tell me something and I thought it would be a good idea to look for a private
place. Where is your house?”
She burst out. “Oh lord…it just
hit me that you have never come to my house…as it happens, we are very close to
the house. Just a few meters ahead. Take a left …”
He was relieved to hear her
laugh. In his opinion, if she could laugh like that, they were still cool. “Can
you believe it? I want to know where you live, just in case you decide to run
off…” He decided to let it slip that Mnaa had actually given him the exact
address of her house.
“You wouldn’t be able to find
me. I have several houses you know…”
“I keep forgetting you are a
rich girl. How does that feel?”
“What, being rich?” He nodded.
“I don’t know…normal? I have never been anything else…”
“Do you…you know, ever wonder
about less rich, or poor people?” Jamba had been born in a middle class family.
Never experienced poverty but in his life in a public college, at work, he had
seen poverty.
She took her time to answer.
Thinking about her time before and during Ruaka. “Not before Ruaka. Before
that, my life was kind of surrounded by rich and wealthy. Expensive private school
and universities, friends, clubs, neighbourhood…everything. Mariam told me a
lot of stories about the ghetto though. I also pay school fees for a lot of
children, but I do not think I ever allowed myself to invest emotionally to all
that…”
“Until Ruaka…”
“Yeah…” She thought about
Wanjala’s meager earnings that were supposed to move mountains of family
responsibilities. She thought about Kendi and her mother. About Mwikali and her
education. About all the people she saw working too, too hard and earning bare
minimum. About all the children she saw walking to school wearing torn uniform,
looking hungry and wearing no shoes. A couple of times, she had shed tears and
wished she would help them. Ruaka had made her emotions raw and she was still
struggling to accept there were so many struggling people. “It is hard to watch
people suffer…” She pointed at a black gate. “That’s the gate…”
He turned in, dimmed his lights
and waited. There was a sign at the gate warning against hooting. Within
seconds, a uniformed guard came out to check, gave Jamba a stern look that
disappeared when he saw Kamaria. “Madam, welcome, welcome. I did not know it
was you…”
“That’s alrigt…how are you?”
“Fine madam. Welcome…”
Jamba was giggling all along,
only speaking when the gate was opened. “Gosh, the way people treat you here…”
“It’s tedious, but what to do…”
She led him to the pent house.
“Of course you have the pent house…” He remarked, walking in and looking around
in admiration. It looked like the perfect place for man-cave and he wondered if
she would give him a copy of the keys. Her sitting room had big, glass windows
with a huge glass door leading to the balcony. None of it had curtains. He
asked about it.
“Unless anyone is going to train
binoculars towards my house, the other apartments are too far for them to see
anything here. Besides, I usually have the lights off here, except for the
corridor ones…”
“Really, really nice.” He was at
the balcony looking at the artificial lights taking over the day lights. Her
balcony had bamboo furniture; he sat one of the seats and lit a cigarette.
“This is an awesome think spot…”
She laughed. She found his
statement weird because she thought the view of trees from his balcony was
perfect think spot and environment. “I can give you a copy of keys.” Had she
read his mind? “Drink?”
He nodded. “Why not? Let’s
toast…”
“To what?”
He shrugged. “Who cares…”
Half an hour later, they were
still at the balcony. They sat opposite each other, feet up on the balcony
rails. They could no longer see each other clearly, but neither seemed
bothered. They were both drinking Amarula.
“Anyway, what is bugging you?”
Jamba finally asked.
“I don’t understand…”
“Something is bugging you. What
is it?”
She sighed. “It could be
nothing…”
“Can I be the judge of that,
please?”
Instead of sipping on her drink
as she was doing earlier, she gulped it all down and put the glass on the
table, pulling down her legs. She shivered not from the chill, but from the
nerves.
“You are right, something is
bugging me…it’s the kids…”
He sat up so fast, he poured
some of the drink on himself. “My kids? What about them?”
“No…no…it’s nothing bad, at
all.” He sighed. “It’s just…I am worried I cannot be who they expect me to be…”
Through the semi darkness, he
stared at her silhouette in confusion. “I don’t get it….”
“Jamba, they want a mother. I
have never, ever taken care of anyone. I have never interacted with children. I
hardly know how to take care of myself…” The tears were burning her eyes, she
let her crying eye to drop them.
He reached for her hand across
the table and squeezed it reassuringly. “I don’t know what happened to scare
you so much, but I can tell you, I do not expect you to be their mother…”
“It’s not you. It is them. They
want a mother…Christian called me mom…”
“Wow…”
“…And I felt good. Honoured
even. Then I got scared. What do mothers do with children? What do they expect
from me? What if I come short of their expectation? Will they hate me? Will I
disappoint you? Will I disappoint me? I am just so overwhelmed with fear…”
Jamba was shocked. So shocked he
could not think of an appropriate thing to say. In his bliss, in his
satisfaction of having Kamaria with him, he had neglected to consider the fine
details of the kind of relationship she was going to have with his children. He
felt angry at himself, disappointed. Selfish, even. He took a deep breath and
squeezed her a little harder.
“I feel like a curd for not
thinking about this. I am sorry…I am sorry for being selfish.”
She sniffled.
“I do not have the answers
because I never thought it from your position, but I promise to forge
something. My kids love you, to bits. My kids have never really had a mother
for obvious reasons, and the fact I never allowed a woman near them. They
probably have been waiting to use that word on anyone. I may be wrong, but I
think to them, it is just a word they have wanted to use…”
“You think?”
“I hope. It probably does not
hold much meaning to them but you know kids, they want to have what their
friends have. They have probably wanted to tell their friends about their
mother and here you are. I can promise you one thing though, that you and I
will find a way…”
“Thank you…”
“You are welcome. I believe it
is enough that you are here - your
presence is probably more important to them than the meaning of the word mom.
Of course, I am happy you are here because of Christine because she is almost a
teenager and would benefit with a woman’s view on the world…but….wow, can we
sit on this and discuss it a little more tomorrow when I think more about it?
Between the two of us, we will have an answer…”
“Okay…also, perhaps we should go
home now. The kids must be wondering where we are…”
He smiled. “Well, I am glad you
call it home but this is also home…” He stood up and helped her up. “We will
call Mariam, speak to the kids and tell them we have a life away from them…”
She giggled. “Then we are going to make love in this house. Then we will go for
dinner, come back here and make more love. Then we can go to our main home…” He
brought his mouth down on her willing mouth.
****
By design, half of the top managerial positions at Sassi Developers were
occupied by women. When her parents were alive, they had put up a policy that
required the top positions to be equally divided. The Managing Director was a
man, his assistant was a woman. The General Manager was a woman, her assistant
was a man. The Human Resources Manager was a woman only a year older than Kamaria
and according the MD, she was highly efficient.
Her name was Leah. Leah’s
appearance was often deceiving but she was known to swiftly put people who
underestimated her in their rightful place. At five feet three inches with a
boyish appearance, she was as petite as they come. Her deep and deliberate
voice, however, gave the first sign that she expected respect.
Kamaria had summoned Leah to her
office for a chat and the latter had come armed with a pen and paper to take
notes. She sat opposite Kamaria, her petite body threatening to disappear in
the seat.
“How many Personal Assistants do
the top managers have?” Kamaria asked, leaning on the seat.
“Two. As per the policy, a male
and a female.”
“Are two necessary.”
“Totally.” Leah answered without hesitation. “One is the
diarist and will follows the managers for official appointments and take notes.
The other one stays in the office to handle business and keep the department
moving.”
“I see. I have only Sheila. Do
you think I need two assistants?”
Leah took her time to answer.
“Well, if you are going to get more involved in the office, if you are going to
attend more meetings, then yes you do. But as of now, Sheila is sufficient.”
“Right. I am certainly going to
get more involved.”
“I can recruit from within. That
is what we do…”
“Not necessary. I have someone
in mind.”
“Oh…are they qualified?” Leah
hated it when potential employees were imposed on her. That, according to her,
was how a company ended up hiring inefficient staff. But this was the boss; she
had no intention to argue.
“I suppose. What do PAs need to
qualify?”
“Well, a degree to start with.
Even better, a degree in management. Of course, others can do but…”
“The person I have in mind has a
diploma in finance…”
“I see. Do they have
experience?”
“Oh yes. Managing a pub
counter.”
“Oh.” Kamaria could tell Leah
was working hard to keep a straight face. She desperately wanted to laugh, but
Leah looked ready to cry with frustration. “Can I at least interview them? And
perhaps train them?”
“Of course. Look, I know you are
not convinced and I totally understand, but I know this person. He is good, and
honest. I am just recommending, the rest is up to you.”
“You mean if I do not like the
person I can tell you so?”
“Absolutely.”
Leah sighed in relief.
Kamaria’s phone rang. It was
Jamba. “That will be all, thank you Leah.” She only answered the phone when
Leah closed the door behind her. “Hey darling…”
“Hello sugar. Would you like to
go out for a drink later?” It was a Friday. It had been a month of living
together, a month of flirting with the idea of going back to R&R.
“To the pub?”
“To the pub.”
“Good. I need to talk to a
couple of people there.”
“Awesome. I can pick you up at
four PM so we have time to get into comfortable clothes?”
“Okay. Oh, Sudi stopped by. Did
you know he has a contract to design our next project?”
Sudi had earlier knocked on her
door, popped his head in wearing a cheeky smile. She had been surprised to see
him, wondering if he was having trouble with Shani and had wanted to talk to
her. The two had been officially dating for three weeks. Sudi informed Kamaria
he had just signed a huge contract with Sassi and wanted to say hello.
“I did. He didn’t want you to
know. He said he didn’t want it to look like you helped him get the contract.”
“Oh. That’s grand…”
“That’s Sudi for you. See you in
a few hours?”
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“Nervous?” Jamba asked. They
were at the parking lot of R&R. They had been parked for over ten minutes
and Kamaria still did not look half ready to leave. She kept looking at her
face on the rear view mirror, then she would look at the pub then start
fumbling in her bag.
It was seven PM and the parking lot was starting to fill up. Country
music could be heard from the inside. “It’s funny. All that time I worked here,
I have never stood out here in the darkness to appreciate what it looks like…”
She was now looking at the pub. The darkness and the colourful bulbs could
easily make her forget how drab R&R looked at day time.
“When I come out here to smoke, I do that a lot. It does look
different…” Jamba answered.
They were both wearing jeans and sneakers. Kamaria had a blue top
covered in a fancy blue sweater. Jamba wore a black tee shirt, no sweater, and
his usual hat.
“How do you think everyone will
react?” She finally spoke her fears.
“I bet they will all be happy to
see you. Malik did ask Wanjala and the two waitresses to wait for you. They
were not on duty but they were excited to hear you are coming. They probably
think you want to buy them a drink…”
“Okay, let’s do this.”
Hand in hand, they went round
the pub and used the back door to access Malik’s office. As usual, he was
fumbling with papers, but he seemed to have taken her advice and got help in
reducing them. Kamaria giggled.
“Hello Mr. Paperman…” Kamaria
called in greeting.
“Serah!” His face lit when he
saw her. He walked from his seat and hugged her from the other side of the
table. “Now I can hug you, you don’t work for me.”
They all laughed. “Hello Jamba.”
“Malik. How are you?”
“I am good. And look at you
Serah…oh, don’t tell me to call you the other name, I like Serah. It’s normal.”
“What’s in a name?”
“Indeed. Come on, sit. I brought
an extra seat when you told me you would be coming. What a cheeky person you
are, Serah. Making us all feel sorry for you while you were rolling in money…”
Kamaria laughed. “I am sorry. I
was going through a phase.”
“Clearly. So, you two love
birds, when is the wedding?”
Jamba coughed. Kamaria laughed.
“He hasn’t proposed…properly.”
“What a foolish man. Anyway,
what is it you two wanted to talk to me about? Oh, tea? Coffee? Alcohol?” They
did not want anything yet. “So, tell me…” Malik pushed away his papers, placed
his elbows on the table and waited for his guests to finish shifting on their
seats and looking at each other.
“You already know most of the
story.” Kamaria started. Jamba had told her they had had a conversation on the
phone. “So I will just get on with the main reason we are here. I asked for
Wanjala, Kendi and Mwikali because, besides being extremely lovely souls and
making my life here fun, they need help. The kind of help I can easily
provide.” She shifted again and looked at Jamba. In turn, he nodded in
encouragement.
“I want to offer Wanjala a job.”
She blurted. She decided to start with the difficult one.
Malik straightened up. “A job.
What sort of a job?”
“An office job. I want him to be
my Personal Assistant…”
“Whooah…that is huge.” He
started rubbing his nose vigourously. “Is he aware?”
Kamaria shook her head. “Not
yet. I did not want to ask him before I spoke to you…”
“O…kay.” He gave his papers a
sad look as he resumed his elbows on the table pose. “This is something,
alright. I hate losing Wanjala. He has been doing a great job in helping with
these…” He pointed at the papers with his mouth. “Plus he is the best bar man
in central and east of Ruaka. But I would never be able to live with myself if
I did not let him have better things so yeah, you have my blessings. At least
Njeri has proved herself...” Kamaria thought she saw his face light up when he
mentioned Njeri and made a note to ask Wanjala if the two were already having
an affair.
“Thank you. There is also Kendi and Mwikali. I would like to take care
of Kendi’s mom and also pay for Mwikali’s education…”
Malik felt so emotional, he was unable to speak for a minute. “This…this is perfect timing. Only last week,
Kendi came here crying to tell me her mother needs to have an amputation. They
do not have enough money for that. Makes you weep for poverty though. I was
going to organize a small fundraiser amongst the staff.”
“That’s terrible…”
“It is. She has been doing
double shifts and the poor girl is almost sleep-walking on the job. I would
like to say life can be crap, but that would be inappropriate after your offer.
As for Mwikali – I have never seen such determination to get a university
degree. She will go far, that girl will. And she will partly thank you for
that.”
Five minutes later, Wanjala,
Kendi and Mwikali cautiously walked in through the door. None of them knew why
they had been asked to come out of shift time and had spent the evening nervous
and guessing. On seeing Kamaria, they all forgot they were supposed to be
nervous and the two girls shrieked in excitement. Wanjala stood back, smiling.
“Serah!” Kamaria stood up,
spreading her arms for a group hug.
“Wow, so good to see you. How
have you been? And look at you? You look so beautiful…” Wanjala was doing all the talking, the two
girls looking on in awe and fascination.
Jamba, feeling invisible, looked
on with pride. When the excitement died down, Malik coughed to call for
attention.
“Now that we are done shrieking,
save the rest of excitement for later. Anyway, boy and girls, sorry there is
nowhere for you to sit. Your former colleague, and very soon you will know why
I feel weird calling her your colleague, has something to say to you. Over to
you, Serah.”
Kamaria turned her seat to face
them. Her back was on Jamba. Looking at them, she had to fight back tears, and
she was not even sure what the tears
were for. She cleared her throat. “It’s a long story guys, one you may never
know all the details. First things first though; I am not who I made you all
believe I was.” She smiled when they looked at each other in confusion. “Kendi,
you may or not remember, over a year ago, a woman who came here or a day time
drink and you and the bar man were so scared because you thought it was someone
from the city council?” Everyone looked at Kendi. She folded her brow, went
deep in thought and when it dawned on her, she gasped and covered her mouth.
“That was me…” Kamaria laughed.
“Good Lord…that…that rich woman?” Jamba, Malik and Kamaria laughed.
“Yes, that rich woman was me.”
“Bu…but…”
Kamaria shrugged. “I told you it is a long story. I would also like to
thank the three of you from the bottom of my heart because you were good to me
– you may never realise how much it meant to me that you took me as your own.
You were there for me, made my time here bearable.”
They looked at each other in confusion. None of them said anything.
“Kendi, I am so, so sorry to hear what is happening with your mother’s
health. Malik told me about it. You do not have to worry anymore – at least not
about the operation, medication and after care will be taken care of…”
Kendi went to collapse, but Wanjala was quick enough. Kamaria stood up
quickly to let Wanjala place Kendi on the seat. “Are you okay?”
She had her head down on her knees, heaving. Nobody moved until she was
composed enough.
“I…I don’t know…I don’t know what to say…thank you. My God will bless
you…” Kendi finally said.
“Thank you…”
“May I be excused? I feel like throwing up…” Without waiting for an
answer, she ran outside, leaving a heavy silence behind.
“She will be fine. She is just overwhelmed…” Malik assured. Everyone
nodded.
“Mwikali…” Kamaria resumed after she took back her seat. “You are such
an inspiration. You are so, so determined with your education. You have not
allowed lack of money to bring you down. How is college?”
Mwikali shrugged. “Fine, I guess…”
“She is lying.” Wanjala said, throwing a sharp look at Mwikali. “She was
kicked out. She cannot do her exams…”
Mwikali was using her shirt sleeve to wipe her silent tears. “Oh. Please
bring all your arrears to Malik. You can resume college…and do your exams.
Also, your remaining time in college will be catered for…”
“Jesus …” Mwikali screamed, her hands dramatically going to her head.
“Are you joking?”
They all laughed. Her comical
reaction was a welcome relief from Kendi’s.
“Certainly not. Your only worry
should be accommodation and passing the exams. Tuition fee and transport will
be sorted. You will also be getting allowance for food…”
“Eish. Did you win the lottery?” Mwikali demanded, then started
laughing. Hysterically. Three minutes later, everyone started getting concerned
when her expression turned painful.
“Is she okay?” Jamba leaned
close to Kamaria to ask. Kamaria shrugged.
“I am sorry…so sorry…” Mwikali
said between laughter. “This is just unbelievable. I was finally going to give
up college, but my mom told me an angel was about to make a difference in my
life…see this… I do not know what to say…”
“Well, perhaps you can go out
and see if Kendi is okay…” Malik suggested. He was getting tired of the emotions
because they were all making him emotional.
Wanjala was standing nervously
against the wall, hands across his chest, big round eyes studying Kamaria in
shock. Throughout the drama with the girls, his mind had done a rewind from the
time he met her and he knew something was different. All the little nuggets
about her character. The fact that anonymous people were paying his children’s
school fees. As he stood there wondering what was in store for him, he had no
doubt she was the anonymous.
“My awesome supervisor and
friend…” Kamaria finally said to Wanjala. He shifted, but his facial expression
remained static.
“Would you be willing to work in
an office?” Kamaria asked. For an answer, Wanjala’s eyes grew in size. “I am
asking if you would like a job?”
“What?” He stood to attention and froze. His lower lip trembled and eyes
seemed ripe enough to pop out of the sockets. “What job, where?”
“An office job. It’s up to you
to take it or not. Malik has given his blessings…”
Wanjala slowly turned to Malik.
“It’s true.” Malik assured. “There is a whole new world out there waiting for
you…”
“Where?” He shook his body as if
to release the tension, sounding more confident.
Kamaria told him.
“Never heard of the company but
it sounds like one of those big companies…”
“You have no idea…” Nobody heard
Malik mutter to himself.
Kamaria nodded. “It
is. The pay is really good, if you get the job. Are you familiar with what a
personal assistant’s job entails?”
He shifted on his
feet. “Not really. I mean, I have never worked in an office. But me, even
rocket science I can handle…” They all laughed. None of them doubted his claim.
“Sawa. Do some research on duties of a PA
so you will be ready. Over the weekend, prepare you CV. Don’t be late for that
interview. Keep the same confidence you always have while working behind the
counter. I have faith in you my friend.” She gave him Leah’s business card.
“She is aware you are going. Eight AM, Monday morning. Do not be late.”
Wanjala took the
card and lifted his eyes and hands to the heavens.
“So many tears…”
Malik remarked.
***
One hour later, they were still chatting about
everything and nothing. Wanjala had served Jamba two beer and ordered for
coffee from the kitchen. Jamba was on his second beer.
“I have to ask you this…” Kamaria said to
Malik. “Is there something you would like me to do for you?”
“Who, me?” Malik was surprised. Kamaria nodded.
“Good Lord…I am the most content man in the world…”
“Not even help renovate R&R? I just feel
like I should do something. You were so awesome to me. You had faith in me
too.”
Malik shook his head emphatically. Jamba
laughed loudly. “Do not offer to renovate this damp. We love it just the way it
is…”
Malik nodded. “It’s true. One time I gave
notice to the customers to close it for renovation. I almost started third
world war. Now all I do is renovate the washrooms and leave everything else as
it is. I do not even bother with the compound as long as the grass is shorter
than five centimeters long, and there is no trash. They want a damp, they will
get one. Saves me money anyway…”
“What can I do, though? There must be something…”
Malik shook his head thoughtfully. “My dear,
many times, when there is real friendship, you do not have to offer material
things. You should be preaching about this anyway. You pretended to have
nothing and see what you got…” He pointed at Jamba.
“I have an idea…” Jamba sat up. “I suggest,
when we get married, and that will happen, you should walk her down the isle…”
“Why did I not think of that?” Kamaria was
excited. She had no father, or father figure. Malik, even in his relatively
young age, was the closest thing she had to a father figure.
“There you go. Now that is a gift I would
happily accept…”
“Now he just needs to propose…” She looked at
Jamba accusingly.
“Patience woman. Patience is a virtue…”
“Pugh…”
“So Serah, do you
think you can drink at the main bar? It will give you an opportunity to talk to
everyone. And you two have already taken too much of my paper time…”
“Yeah. Why not?”
Hand in hand, Jamba
and Kamaria walked to Jamba’s corner. Wanjala and Njeri were working behind the
counter. Njeri gave her a high five and winked; something Kamaria took as a
confirmation on her earlier suspicions with Malik. Wanjala’s face broke into a smile.
“Look who is here
as a customer!” He left the counter to hug Kamaria. “I owe you that hug, for
everything you are making possible for me and the girls, for missing you as
well. To also tell you that you look so different – so beautiful.”
“It is really great
to see you. How is work?”
“Well you know.
They haven’t invented a new alcoholic drink so it’s still the same.” He was
back to his side of counter. “I miss you. Everyone misses you, especially Kendi
and Mwikali – clearly they had a good reason to miss you.”
“Where are they?
Have they calmed down?” Kamaria was looking around.
“Somewhere out
there and yes, they are fine. Grinning and hugging everybody, colleagues and
customers alike. I will find them in a bit.” He served Jamba his Tusker. “Sorry
Serah, I have never served you before. What do you want to drink?”
“How about water?”
She was unwilling to partake beer, and she had never liked the stocked wine.
“You stopped
drinking?” He asked as he put a bottle of water on the counter.
“I am on a break.”
They shared a secret smile, remembering that time she came to work wearing a
hangover instead of clothes.
“I think I see Sudi coming in…” Jamba said
excitedly. “Very timely because I am beginning to feel like a third wheel
here…” Jamba whispered to Kamaria.
“You are so
spoilt…”
“Unashamedly so,
too. I will waylay Sudi and leave the counter to you.” He kissed her lightly on
the mouth, took his beer and went to meet Sudi.
Wanjala excused
himself to go and fetch Kendi and Mwikali, leaving Kamaria and Njeri. “So, what
has been happening?” She asked cautiously. She had not had time to know Njeri
on a personal level to ask directly about Malik.
“Oh, everything is fine. Our friend,” she
pointed, using her mouth, to the direction of Malik’s office. “He was a little
hesitant but I was persistent…” Njeri laughed.
“You mean…you two?”
“Of course. All the silly girls here are
waiting for a man like Jamba to rescue them.” She made a sucking sound. “Only
problem is men like him are hard to come by. In the meantime, Malik has been
sitting in that office waiting to be loved. I gave him that love…”
“Wow…” Kamaria wanted to question Njeri more on
the details but the arrival of Wanjala and the girls came too fast. The four of
them had another prolonged group hug.
“I am so glad you
are calm now. You scared me for a while…” Kamaria said, releasing them all.
“Wah. I thought I
was going to die in there…” Kendi said happily. “We do not know what to say to
you, Serah. Thank you so, so much…I already called my mother to tell her the good
news. She is praying for you right now…”
“So is mine…”
Mwikali added, not wanting to be outdone.
Kamaria laughed
uncomfortably. She never could muster enough courage to tell people she just
did not subscribe to any superiour being. She always thought it such a waste
when people prayed for her. “That’s lovely. Tell her I appreciate…”
“So tell us…did you
win the lottery?” Mwikali demanded, echoing her earlier question, poking
Kamaria lightly.
“Something like
that…” She doubted they would believe her if she told them the truth.
“Or did Jamba give
you all that money? He is a rich man…” Kendi asked with a conspirator tone.
Kamaria laughed
again. “Maybe…” She did not even know how much Jamba was worth, but she was
pretty sure she was worth much more than him. Kendi’s question made her wonder
if she and Jamba would ever discuss their finances.
“I can tell you for sure, you have given hope
to many girls here. Now they believe they can get a decent man from here.”
Wanjala said from across the counter.
“Seriously, I have
to be a maid on your wedding.” Kendi face was so serious, Kamaria believed she
was serious. “I can’t believe you got
Jamba. Everyone wanted him.”
Kamaria giggled.
“Who is everyone?”
“All the waitresses
here.” Mwikali said with a giggle and a wink. “I would have said yes anytime if
he had asked me…”
“Okay, this
conversation is really weird. Do you mind?” Kamaria protested.
“Mannerless girsl. Discussing someone’s fiancé
like that in front of her…“ Wanjala reprimanded with a click. “In fact, I think
you have overstayed your welcome. Shoosh…go and earn a living by serving
customers…”
“We are off duty…” Mwikali protested. She was
hoping to be invited to have a drink with Kamaria.
“I do not care. You are here, and I am your
supervisor. I say, go out there and serve. In fact, Sudi does not have a drink
yet. Take his Tusker to him…”
The two walked away grumpily, Mwikali carrying
Sudi’s Tusker and a glass.
“Thank you…” Kamaria said with relief. “I did
not know how to stop them…”
“I could tell.
Anyway, I also wanted them gone so I can talk to you. What’s this really about?
In one evening, you have promised to give out millions of shillings. Who does
that?” He was now facing her across the counter, using his hands to support
himself on it.
“Well, things are
not always as they seem…”
“Stop speaking in
parables. Who the hell are you?”
“Wanjala! Such
terrible language…” She was laughing, determined to drag things as long as
possible.
Wanjala’s mind was
working on overdrive again, his mind picking up from his earlier thoughts in
Malik’s office. He was thinking back to the day Kamaria started working at
R&R. How different he thought she was. How she just could not seem to fit
in the environment. Of course, he had not been on duty when she had first come
in as a customer and he wondered if he would have connected the dots. Little things here and there. The evening had
been a revelation, but there were still too many gaps. It was like being in
darkness, knowing there were things to see, and a sudden light replacing the
darkness, then going off again.
“It’s not even
funny.” Wanjala said with seriousness she had never witnessed. “I know you
already hinted you are not who we thought you were. The mother question is, who
are you?”
Kamaria sighed and
sat up straight, studying Wanjala for a few seconds. “You are right, but that
question I cannot answer right now. Soon you will know why. But I shall forever
be grateful for the unconditional friendship you gave me from day one. For all
the covering up you did for me. For making me feel at home. You may not know
this, but without you, I may not have survived here…”
Wanjala swallowed
hard. What Kamaria did not know was he had thwarted many attempts to bully her.
Save from Kendi and Mwikali, the other waitresses did not like her. They had
wanted to frustrate her because she apparently was attracting all the good men.
He had threatened to tell Malik if they tried anything. She did not know, but he,
Kendi and Mwikali had been her guardian angels. “That is okay. You are a good
girl. And you have done so much for me too.”
Story by Ciku Kimani-Mwaniki
Personal guinea pigs - Nyambura Michuki, Ceh Gichimu, Rachel Kimani, Carole Shiku
Lovely ciku keep em coming. And the drink had to be Amarula😆😆😆😆
ReplyDeleteNo less haha. Tune in for the grand finale next week.
DeleteJeez Ciku, you sure can spin a tale! I love it soooo much hate to imagine next week is the grand finale but looking forward to it all the same.
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DeleteNow i will have to be reading these in private because this weeping in public is becoming my new normal. Thanks Ciku
ReplyDeleteAwwww... thank you for that
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